Rest Stop

Today I am at home.  I had to take a rest.  My condition is called fibromyalgia, some say it is only in the mind of the sufferer, but we who suffer from this life altering condition say it is all too real.  Fibromyalgia affects the nerves and muscles in the body, it is considered overwork nerves, the result is extreme pain and aches from head to toe.  I also suffer from fluid retention in my feet, ankles, hands and fingers which makes walking painful and my hands are very weak strength wise.  I have been a sufferer for four years and diagnosed three years ago.  Due to recent medication specifically for this condition the pain is always there but sometimes not as intense.  About 2 months ago my doctor changed my medication again and even though it sometimes makes me nauseated I have had better days.  I began school on Aug. 19th and have not had a day to rest until today and that is a first.  Prior to the med change I could hold out working monday thru friday but on the weekends I was off of my feet for the whole weekend recovering, just to make it thru another week.  I am exhausted today but hopeful.  I am not ready for disability.  I am very excited about this master's program even though it has consumed alot of  my energy and now that I am teaching I know that it is going to require mind over matter.  I want to be able to use what I learn in my own classroom and two years from now I want to fly to Cambridge on graduation day to receive my Masters.  What ever I achieve in my life I have to give credit to the Lord.  I have been in some deep valleys these past few years but I have not walked alone.  I have to trust in my Lord and Savior that he will continue to lead and guide me.